So, I’ve been thinking about shutting down my blog. I know, I know. I just started it not too long ago. But, there are a few things that are nagging away at me – not the lack of traffic and readers (yes; I can see on my Stats page if you’ve actually read the links that I send, dear family and friends…Nobody’s reading. I have proof!) Seriously though, I really don’t write to get the numbers (although it is tempting to watch those numbers obsessively for them to increase.) I really believe that if I have to live in this world where so much evil exists – where people hurt and kill one another, where the majority of people live as if evil is good and good, evil – then I have to do something to make the world a better place in which to live. The only way that any one individual or a society as a whole can truly be better is through the saving power of the Gospel. Only the Lord God can bring about genuine and lasting change in this morally depraved and sinful world. So, I have to do what God has commanded; I want to obey Him.
But here are the thoughts that are getting in the way:
1. “Lord, I’m not capable of sharing your message. I get extremely anxious when having to talk to people, and I freeze up, stumble over my words, and can’t even think straight.”
2. “This world is just too corrupt – too hateful, too cruel. People do horrible things to others, they mistreat one another, and they openly denounce You. And they don’t even care. Why even bother, Lord; they don’t care about You. They are too far gone in the devil’s hands.”
3. “I have made so many mistakes. I am sinful. And I struggle every day to live how You want me to live. But I often fall short – and many times I have. Who’s going to listen to anything I have to say?”
4. “I’m not physically able to carry out Your call. How can you use me if I am not strong enough – if I am weary, wounded?”
Then, when I think those thoughts, the word of God comes to mind. I couldn’t help it if I tried not to think it. It’s hidden in my heart.
Here’s the reminder I get from God, to me, through His word:
1. Moses said the same – that he wasn’t eloquent in speech and that he was slow and hesitant in speaking. The Lord said to Moses, “Who made the human mouth? Who makes him mute or deaf, seeing or blind? Is it not I the Lord? Now go! I will help you speak and I will teach you what to say” (Exodus 4: 10-11).
2. Is it not the same thing Jonah said? He ran from the Lord when He told him to go and preach against the wickedness of the Ninevites. Jonah knew that God was “a merciful and compassionate God, slow to become angry, rich in faithful love, and One who relents from sending disaster” (Jonah 4:2). Jonah was not fond of the evil of the people of Nineveh; he wanted them to see the consequences of having been so violent and evil in their ways. But God said, “Should I not care about the great city of Nineveh, which has more than 120,000 people who cannot distinguish from their right and their left” (Jonah 4:11)? God cares for the people of today’s world, who are violent, cruel, and evil, and He wants them to be saved, just like He wanted for the Ninevites.
3. Again, look at Moses. He murdered a man, and then told others that it was wrong for them to be fighting amongst themselves. They said to Moses, “Who made you a leader and judge over us” (Exodus 2:13). But Moses delivered the people of God out of Egyptian bondage, he spoke to God as to a friend, and he was called the meekest man on earth.
Paul, before being converted, persecuted the church. And when he began to preach Christ and Him crucified, the people said, “Isn’t this the man who, in Jerusalem, was destroying those who called on His name” (Acts 9:21)? Paul also said he was the worst of sinners (a title that I now take), but he wrote over half of the New Testament and was an integral part of the growth of the early church. But Christ came into the world to save sinners, and like He did to Paul, He has shown mercy to me “to demonstrate the utmost patience as an example to those who would believe in Him for eternal life” (1 Timothy 1:16).
The message I have to share is not my own, but what I speak is only what I receive from God through His word. So, if people don’t listen to me, it’s really God who they are rejecting – and His gift of eternal salvation.
People rejected Christ, and He wasn’t even received in His own hometown or by His brothers.
The Lord also reminded me that “though a righteous man falls seven times, he will get up” again (Proverbs 24:16). Donnie McClurklin also made a song about it.
4. Paul had a thorn in his flesh that he pleaded to God to remove, three times. God told him that His grace was sufficient and His strength is made perfect in weakness (2 Corinthians 12:8-9). And Paul continued to teach the message of Christ.
The Lord said to me through His word (that’s the only way He speaks to us today – not through a still small voice, or in a dream, but through His word (Hebrews 1:1-2)):
“I have chosen you and not rejected you. Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be afraid, for I am your God. I will strengthen you; I will help you; I will hold on to you with My righteous right hand” (Isaiah 41:10).
So, there it is.
There’s work to be done. And if you are reading, my sisters in Christ: we are all commanded to teach the younger women (Titus 2: 3-4). And we are all commanded by Christ to teach the gospel of Christ to all creation that they might believe on Him and be baptized to receive His gift of salvation (Matthew 28:19). Let’s share the good news of Jesus Christ. So, if you’ve had any of the concerns above that I’ve mentioned or something similar, don’t be discouraged. God is with you. He will help you. He will strengthen you. He will hold you up with His righteous right hand.